Thursday, November 10, 2005

Life it seems, will fade away.....

The starting lines of my favourite Metallica song Fade to Black. This song is about the mental state of a person about to commit suicide. I am reminded 2day of this song more than ever, the reason being that a III yr student of my department committed suicide. I should mention that I didn't know the junior personally but incidents like this are shocking. Another disturbing fact is that this is a second such incident in the same semester with both students being from III yr and of the same department. Rumors going around say that the cause was that they had back papers in one or more papers but this seems like an extremely flimsy reason to me. Can't think of the mental state of a person who can even contemplate such a drastic step. I guess no reason is good enough for this.
Another thing that I am reminded of is a scene from the movie Saransh. Anupam Kher tries to take his own life but is saved. His wife tells him that Taking one's own life is the final act of a coward to which he replies that Who can be more brave than the person who decides to take this step. I don't know who I would agree with.

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can’t be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he’s gone

No one but me can save myself,
but it’s too late
Now I can’t think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

9 comments:

insane said...

dude u so cleverly avoided pushing the blame on the profs...it is sad as roorkee continues its record of deaths..this place is morbid..but ya a nice time to put up that lyrics...

~RAUL~ said...

dude great song and equally superb lyrics.
And I don't think back papers in couple of subject can lead a person to suicide. Something more than this.
Still a very sad feeling.

Abdul Bijur V.A. said...

metallica .. drign those days had written some very very good lyrics .. right from unforgiven/fade to black/king nothing/uf2/wherever i may roam .. these are all really well worded..

ma fav song ever: king nothing :)

shonali said...

I think he had too much expectations from himself which he couldnt meet up to and decided to die... I dont agree with this... and I cant understand such ppl

Abdul Bijur V.A. said...

been listening to 'fade to black' for two days now ... so added it to ma lyrics repos : http://spammersinc.com/lyrics :) .. add more there if ye please :)

Abdul Bijur V.A. said...

http://spammersinc.com/lyrics/2005/11/15/fade-to-black/
the exact url! :)

susubala said...

hey..why so sad feeling yaar... Dont try to fade away, but to overcome the difficulties and sadness..This is all the life is...Cheer up...

vaibhav said...

cheer up dude.
its all a phase.
read yr comment on Anish's blog.
sorry bout the sad incidents happening in Roorkee.

chill mate

shonali said...

so are we updating now??